I miss you to a point where I don't think it's even possible
I’m so sorry that I didn’t turn out what you had raised me to be . I’m disappointing and opposite of what you aimed for , I’m sorry for failing you so soon . I love you Abuelita and I’m sorry for everything .. I miss you so much & I wish you were here to guide me and give me that unconditional love you gave me . That is what I’m missing in my heart , your love and affection . it’s been a little over two years but in my head I can still feel your skin , I can still see your nails painted and your lips with that lipstick you’d always use . I can see you in those shoes and smell your skin . I can still feel you sleeping beside me when you’d come to my house . I can see those watering eyes when you were going back home away from me . I can still feel the pain in my heart if knowing you will never be back to give me a kiss on the cheek or scold me for something I had done . My heart aches , numb when I don’t feel the pain . There is an enormous hole in my heart and it can never be filled how it’s supposed to be without you here . I pray that in heaven I will see you again . I pray that God will help me through all of my obstacles . I pray that I will never forget your touch , that skin on the top of your hands , how it was so soft and wrinkled . I cry because I miss you and I am terrified that in life when I try to be like you , I have failed miserably . I’m so sorry for everything I have done . My heart aches because you’re gone and sometimes I don’t even know how this can make me stronger if there’s no way out of this hole I’m stuck in , in the pain of not having you here . I love you and I miss you terribly . <3
Late start & Dalton came to get me from my house , then we picked up Cristina and Pep :) hahaha we stopped by the donut shop and got us some donuts ;) Daltons got squished by third period but it’s all good , LOL . He dropped me off at home after practice and I went with Amy back to his game . He did really good <3 nevermind the score ;) after his game Dalton came over and i wrote out his Spanish project D; haha Dalton just left like 10 minutes ago but I wish he was still here , I never get tired of being with him . I think it’s supposed to be that way though . By the way I love his kisses , they are so perfect and sweet and everything in between . I love you Dalton Ammann , <3
Today , I woke up texting my Dalton . Went to school and gave Dalton kiss (: he made fun of me about stuff and I laughed . :D then walking to first with Hend , I realized that I really love him . We have been together for over a year & we are still going strong .<3 I didn’t think I can find someone who I can take for my own so soon in life . We fight a crap load sometimes but then again , who the hell doesn’t ? School went on as usual and practice was really good , in my opinion . I’m so excited for CIF . Then after we went to watch the team we are playing on a video while Dalton waited for me to get out . I went to my locker then to Dalton’s car & I kissed him on the ear :O haha daltons butt found a secret compartment and showed it to me , it was pretty secretive :D we sat in his car and talked and he gave me his cheap pencils that were rejected from his pile of good pencils ): dalton told me to get out and open his hood then he asked me if it was dirty , i told him yes and he got out of the car to look at it . Then we both got back insode the car and he looked at me and said ‘megan fox does that way hotter ’ 3 ill learn to open hoods in a hotter way for you dalton LOL :) I called my mom to pick me up & there was a car that looked like mine and Dalton said it was my dad D; I swear I thought my heart stopped HAHA, my mom called me back & told me I had to wait a while to get picked up . Dalton took me home and was like no hug or kisses for you because what if my dad comes ?! LOL I’d die . Dalton got in trouble by my dad the other day LOL and they haven’t met yet HAHAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHA . I love you Dalton :) today was a really good day & too top it off …….
I just found out mother nature is here to give me her monthly gift , oh how sweet she is ;) . Dalton thanks for being mine and for being there to listen to me nag about crap , and watch me open the hood in an unHOT way :( . I love you , Dalton Ammann <3
That tomorrow when I wake up , I will be able to kiss the one person I want to kiss . I’ll be able to tell him happy valentines day & tell him I love him . I thank God that tomorrow I won’t be alone . I’ve got my Valentine and he is that one missing piece to my puzzle. One year , two months and almost two weeks and it’s just the beginning <3
was the longest day . Woke up did choresss , fixed my flat tire on my bike , came inside and cleaned the house some more , then cleaned my room , now I’m doing BIO study questions while listening to Pandora on Lupe Fiasco station . :)
all this happening while Dalton never texting me back & me wishing I was at Disneyland withhhh him ! :( Janine I feel you , I am stuck at home thinking of ways to entertain myself and its a fail . Maybe I’ll finish my BIO tonight though ! that’d me amazing :O
maybe dalt will text me back sometime soon so we can talk . i still love you but you make my life lame when you dont text me back :)
An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with God. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand.
Professor:You are a Christian, aren’t you, son?
Professor:So, you believe in God?
Professor:Is God good?
Professor:My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is God good, then? Hmm?
(Student was silent)
Professor:You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?
Professor:Is Satan good?
Professor:Where does Satan come from?
Professor:That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Professor:Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Professor:So who created evil?
(Student didn’t answer)
Professor:Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?
Professor:So, who created them?
(Student had no answer)
Professor:Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever seen God?
Professor:Tell us if you have ever heard your God.
Professor:Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God, for that matter?
Student:No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.
Professor:Yet you still believe in Him?
Professor:According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student:Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor:Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.
Student:Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Student:And is there such a thing as Cold?
Student:No, sir, there isn’t.
(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)
Student:Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There was a pon-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)
Student:What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Professor:Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?
Student:You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light… But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it’s called Darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?
Professor:So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student:Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor:Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student:Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Professor:If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do.
Student:Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)
Student:Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
(The class was in uproar)
Student:Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?
(The class broke out into laughter)
Student:Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures?
(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)
Professor:I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student:That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving!